October is a special month for me, not only is it my birthday month… but it always reminds me of the precious gift health and life is. I was 21 and preparing to get married, move away from home and start a new life with my husband in Northern CA. During a routine check-up, my doctor became alarmed by a large quarter sized lump that was found… I had noticed it, but ignored it. Insert Breast Cancer Alert here… I was only a month away from getting married. After seeing a specialist and having ultrasounds, they found 4 lumps total. After many doctor appointments, I was told that my lumps-masses were consistent with benign fibroadenomata … aka: non cancerous masses. But it was not finalized… I was uninsured at the time and would not be able to take care of thisuntil after I was married. An unusual peace came over me at the time, either that or complete ignorance :o) and I continued my normal life routines, lots of coffee, little sleep and tons of planning for an upcoming wedding.
After I was married, we began the process of ruling out cancer. First i went through needle biopsy, but the results ruling out cancer were unclear. Such a crazy and scary thing for a newly=wed to go through. All the scenarios of what if come into play. After about 9 months of marriage, I was finally sent in for an operation called open biopsy (bilateral, excisional biopsy) in which they removed all 4 masses, then I waited…
….waiting to find out the final word: cancer or no cancer. The answer came back negative. No cancer. Such a scare but such a wonderful outcome. I remember that I recovered from my operation at a woman’s retreat… surrounded with support. Thankful and blessed that I had narrowly missed a tough diagnosis.
Every October I remember. I remember the thoughts and prayers during that time that I prayed and the love, support and prayers of all my loved ones. It was during this time that my faith became stronger, that my vision for the future became brighter and that my hope for the dreams still in my heart took deep root… because of Jesus. I would have never made it through with peace if not for Him.
I am writing this tonight, as many of us have known someone whose diagnosis was different from mine… During this month, as we see pink ribbons amidst all the orange festivities, Please remember to appreciate life. Don’t take the small precious moments for granted.
Make the most of the days you are given, and press into God! Do you know His undying love for you? Do you know the peace that surpasses all your “right-now” situations?
Praying for you tonight.
Ps. 30:11-12 You have turned my mourning into joyful dancing. You have taken away my clothes of mourning and clothed me with joy, that I might sing praises to you and not be silent. O LORD my God, I will give you thanks forever!
– Dedicating this to my good college friend Stephanie who recently battled and won a fight with breast cancer, she is a true hero. Read her grueling and faith filled story here: http://lasaterland2.blogspot.com/